Happy Birthdaaaaay to you......Happy Birthdaaaaaaay to youuuuuu....Happy Birthday, dear Ceeee-Eeeeeeee......Haaaappy Birrrrrthdaaaaay to youuuuuuuu!
Hope you're having a good night, babe AND that you're partying SAFELY!! (Sorry, it's the Dad in me.) I'm delighted that you like the song--I think you'll like the "better mix" more-so. Sorry about that lousy version you got but glad you could look through the mixing error (still don't know how I managed it--headphones mistake I think) and appreciate the sincerity behind it. How does one capture the feeling of Springtime and Hope and Renewal and Love in music? Not easily, obviously *laughs!* I'm honored to have you for a friend and glad that you enjoyed the gift. Hopefully, you were a little surprised, even though I had hinted at it enough I guess....
Happy Birthday, C.! And many happy returns!
P.S. Got another promsing Pioneer for you....
Oh, Well Hello! Didn't see you over there!
Provided there are no untoward ("This is not toward!") surprises tomorrow when I test the disc on various players (i.e., sounds half-way decent), then I can finally say I'm done recording my latest song, an effort that's only taken longer than I can accurately recall but well over a year, likely way more from the very first time I played the riff. This is not an indication of how wonderful a song it is, but rather a picture of my bumbling inability to write words and melodies, then arrange it, record it and mix it. As C. has said: "What're you going to do once you're done?!" Well, take a night or two off, that's for sure! Get some sleep, maybe, too! *laughs* Naaaaa, nothing THAT crazy.....*laughs*
Truly, though, it's not officially done until it's made the rounds of my various players to check to see if the sound is on mark. Plus, I think I'll have my Listeners give it a spin to make sure everything's working (besides the arrangement, melody, and singing, which Sunny shot down last week--thanks, babe!) C.'s probably given up on ever hearing it. Hang in there! Any day now! I mean it this time. Really. Really really!
I think it's going to be all right though, having come up with the idea tonight to mix the song through a RADIO SPEAKER. That seemed to give a good overall shape to the sound and only required some stereo field alterations and a few sound level adjustments. The last 2 /1/2 hours have been spent on minor tweaks--tiny flaws that would probably go unnoticed by anyone except The Proud Father. I left all the HUGE FLAWS in for the general audience. Don't worry--plenty to go around for everyone!
Anyway--just had to deliver my good news!
P.S. Hey, Juli! Might catch Bounding Main at Port's Maritime Fest but it'll be tricky with the timing. We're gonna be travelling right around when they're going to be there but that's the CLOSEST venue to our pad.....so, yeah, one day you might get a tap on the shoulder and a "It's me!" If not at a concert, Sunny and The Kid might be talked into a Renaissance Faire--you work Bristol, right?
What in the world?! Ol' Jaxon's up and posting during daylight hours? It canna be true!!
Anyway, Juli, yes, I'm still alive and kickin'--thanks for asking/caring! I'll have to catch up on your journal entries to see what you've been up to. Did you make it to Maggie's Farewell to Tarwathie party? I saw the pics but didn't see you there in the throng. What a crowd! It won't be the same without her. I hope you and yours have all been well! Festival season's coming--got that 20 lb. bag of jewels set in some more nice pieces already? *smiles!*
Yes, Hooga-Booga. You may quote me on that....
Oh, Hello there! I didn't recognize you there for a second, it's been so long! (That's what she sa--....never mind....)
Yes, well, as idle speculation has supposed, I've been quite busy making myself crazy with attempting to write and record a song. So far, I have about 5 and a half minutes of what sounds like a female Russian shot-putter warbling nonspecifically out of key. While holding a manhole cover. And with a bad sinus condition. Nope, not happy at all. (Me, not the Russian shot-putter, although I doubt she'd be happy either.) Can I just NOT SING ANY MORE? Is that it? Or am I still learning the song? Every take seems to have a problem with it. I've tried splicing together takes with some luck but there's always something that's not quite right. It's been quite frustrating......And, I KNOW that if I don't fix the problems NOW, that later on, let's say a year or so from now, when I'm listening to my efforts, that botched phrase or late chord, or slightly flat harmony will drive me crazy....it will....
Hooga-Booga. This is some strange phrase that popped into my mouth while recording a few nights ago. I discovered that if I'm singing before I actually start the verses, that I come in less abruptly/harshly so I now have 8 or 9 versions of this song that start with me chanting "Hooga-Booga, Hooga-Booga, Hooga-Booga...." I may leave it in as it is currently the best part of the song......
So, I've been ignoring just about everything/everyone lately just to work on this song. I'm starting to feel like I'm wrestling a bear; a big brown bear who's growling in my face and snapping his jaws while we lock arms and dance grunting around the room. (Perhaps that's the weird, bass spectrum thumping I heard under the acoustic guitar track the other day?!?!) The thing is this......I've put waaaaay too many hours into this not to finish it. What scares me (besides the bear; well, not scares, really, but causes consternation) is that the song is not worth all the trouble.....although I'll be first to admit that I've lost any ability to judge it any longer. The only thing I can tell is/are flat notes, take after take after take.....after take....after take....please, no....after take.....No, stop, really......after take, after take.....I don't want to write this song any more!....Please!.....after take....after take....after take...AIIIIEEEE!!!!
I was actually hoping to give this as a present but I honestly doubt this will ever see the outside of my iPod. Not unless it shapes up more than it has. I mean....it's like THIS FUCKING CLOSE to being done....all I need are the vocal tracks and a dash of electric guitar maybe....that's ALL.....it's not that hard so why am I having so many problems with it?!??! Auuuughhh!!!! Why can't I SING THIS?? Have I always been this bad and no one's told me?? Good lord, what a thought......yikes!
I do thank you for allowing me to vent a bit......now, excuse me while I submerge again.....I'll be back with updates if anything good ever comes from these altogether-too-late night sessions.....
Your Lovin' Jaxon
P.S. Did I see you at the mixer, drinking Five and Dimes?
Hey, hi, sorry to interrupt but did you guys see my sanity around here?
Oh, hey, Hi, how're ya'? Man, it feels like weeks since I posted last.....and I miss you!
Well, I've been busy working on some music. This damn thing, this, this purported song, I've been working on, has been driving me crazy. In the past week or so, it's gone through major changes, literally HUNDREDS of voices and harmony part takes, changes in lyrics and arrangements and now I've reverted back, essentially, to the original arrangement and lyrics. (Ha! Playing jokes on myself again, am I? What a rogue!) Seriously, I was on the verge of tears on Wednesday night after another somewhat fruitless session; it's been so frustrating! BUT, what I'd forgotten is that sometimes I'm not writing the song, sometimes I'm merely learning it, a very strange and mysterious part of the creative process that happens to me occasionally (okay, well, probably more often than I'm aware.) This has been one of those cases....
I've basically known the melody since I wrote the chord progression around a year and a half ago. At the time, I didn't think I was capable of writing any singable lyrics for it. I actually tried to write lyrics for a couple at work but, for very obvious reasons to me now, I couldn't write anything that rang true. I finally shelved the idea and put the song away--didn't even listen to it ONCE--for about a YEAR, until all manner of the words had left my brain. That's how stuck I was. (And perhaps a bit selfish, too. Deep down, I actually wanted to give the song to only HALF the couple. *smiles!*)
After a year went by, I happened upon the guitar riff and felt it might be time to try another whack at writing lyrics. The words, as always, needed to be written and rewritten and REWRITTEN so, at least that much wasn't too unexpected: often, the phrasing of a line on paper can sound different when you actually sing it, what with the logistics of tongue twisters and sibilance/hardness of some words versus others. BUT, because I was having trouble singing the melody and lyrics, I mistakenly thought that there were some major problems with the structure and words, so I began altering them. That's where the frustration started to sink into the pit of my stomach. The refrain actually migrated to a completely different key(!), which, though it sounded pretty good--a bit "Who-ish" perhaps--just didn't sit with the rest of the melody, which I also started futzing with. When I scrapped my new ideas and decided to see what I could "rescue" from my previous efforts--I'd been working on it so long by this time that I couldn't just shelve it again--suddenly it started to show promise. Lyrics started to fall into place as I sang them over and over and over and fucking over, trying to get that winning take and the melody, certainly challenging to someone like me with a "Land of a Thousand Dances" voice, started to smooth itself out. It just struck me last night *foont!* that all along I had been merely learning the song, that the writing of it had been done for weeks, probably longer............duh, Jaxon, DUH......
Oh--part of the problem, too, has been recording my voice. The mics I have are fairly sensitive and my voice has been coming out a bit shrill (yikes!) here and there in all my heart-felt expressiveness (i.e., too damn loud). Oh, yes, simply perfect for a LOVE SONG. Oy.....
Finally, tonight, I grabbed the "play mics" in our basement that I let The Kid and her pals use through some beater guitar amps, and sure as hell, the 25 year old Audio-Technicas sounded fantastic, capturing the voice in the close-up manner I had been trying to achieve without studio voo-dooery.....
So, it's closer than ever to completion now, having really taken shape in the last day or two and my enthusiasm for the piece has increased GREATLY since I finally figured out how the damn thing goes.....a bit of percussion on it today went a long way, too. The words have been fairly difficult though, because I've had someone in mind while writing it and there's always the problem of assessing just what is "good enough" for someone you love. ......the answer: Nothing.....*smiles!* Yeah, so it's an instrumental now and.....*laughs!*......just kidding.....
Anyway.....going to go mix what I've got to check the sound for further recording efforts tomorrow......so, let me go kick Kato off the computer......
P.S. I swear, I'm not writing anything except really simple rock/blues numbers from here on out.....even C. will be able to play 'em!
P.P.S. Sorry for the scattered sounding nature of this missive.....my brain's pretty fried right now....
P.P.P.S. I LOVE the pic--you are so adorable!
Testing, testing.......is this on? Hellohello? *tap-tap-tap* AH--there we go---back on!
Well, HELLO! How are ya'? I gotta tell ya'--Green is really a great color on you.....
Wow--I'm ERASING tonight, Ladies and Gentlemen! *laughs!* Some people can type 35 wpm, I can erase all that and then some! You wouldn't believe what just got stricken from the record! I really make myself laugh sometimes!
People should NOT drink and blog...
HEY--there you are! We've been bounced off the interweb for the last couple days! The only explanation I got from any of the Charter reps I spoke to was that there was a "Local Network Outage" and that there was a rather non-specific fix time (one agent said 2 hours, another, THE NEXT DAY, said 7 or 8 hours but that it would be fixed with continuing "intermittent outages." What the fnck?! So far though, after having Charter ping my modem, it seems to be working all right. Sorta. Couple connection failures. The speed, though, crap, is around 15 mbps d/l time; really fast, at least for us. I'm guessing part of it is that other people on our node haven't fired back up yet and so we're getting a heaping bowlful of signal. I've rather regarded the internet as a toy first and a reference library second but I had no idea how much I've grown accustomed to checking the email and news and weird news and entertainment news and baseball news and then screwing around like watching the We Five on YouTube singing You Were On My Mind, and then finding a version of Venus by Shocking Blue from both the 60s and the TWO-THOUSANDS when the lead singer was likely on death's door and looked horrible and sounded like life had not been kind to her in any part of her recent history.....I keep forgetting: You cannot UNSEE things......anyway, yes, I was talking about the Interweb.....I've always thought that I would miss it about as much as Cable Televsion (not at all) but now that it's been out for a couple days, I've seen how I've come to rely on it more than I thought....
Venus by Shocking Blue. That could be on a favorite songs disc. But probably not on the one I'm making for C. You out there? Man, you are just really fucking amazing, more and more, every second..........I'm so puzzled in many ways about you......
And I'm still just so, well, struck by the note you sent.....I mean, you did send it to the RIGHT PERSON, didn't you?? *smiles!*
Okay, I can tell my mind is definitely far afield tonight so I'm a-gonna saunter off to bed........to dream of a sunny day and laughter and a picnic lunch and music, sweet music......oh, man, can't wait for that day.....
Ah, now I'm erasing before even writing---getting smarter by the moment in my old age....
Good night and I Love You~
I came across these lines by a fellow named Scranton Merriweather, a writer of notoriety, or perhaps a notary who writes, (the record's unclear on the matter) and they so nicely summarize that slippery notion of love, especially as it pertains to people who hold language and writing quite close to their hearts, that I thought I would share it. Take it away, Scranton:
"I was always quite taken with her but I didn't know it was really Love until I realized one night that she was the woman I imagined I was writing to all these years. You know how you have a perfect reader in mind to focus your work? SHE was my imaginary perfect reader come to life and she completely got me like no one else ever had. How could I not love her when she gave me such freedom?"
How indeed? Could you imagine what it would be like to meet Your Reader? The person who really "gets" your every word? Someone, to whom you could write as if only you had to understand it? How could you not fall in love with her (or him)? What if you really get her writing, too?? THIS is the person you want to be your Valentine....*smiles!*
With hopes that you all find your Perfect Readers and, of course, Love, oh my, yes, from the Heartland,
P.S. Thanks for the C.Notes....I keep rereading and smiling and smiling....
"In all my 30 years as a doctor, I've never seen anything like it......" -- My Colonoscopy Doctor
Well......I'm just slick as a whistle......
I'm all geared up from recording. WHEEE-HAH!!! The "new" song is coming along nicely, as a TODDLER should....*smiles!*